Oh shabang.

It's been an awful few weeks.

Everything that could go wrong did.

I went in the ditch.

My grandparents were hit by a vehicle as they were crossing the street.

There were some huge miscommunications going on that went a little to far!

I got my wisdom teeth out.

I still have chunks of teeth stuck in there....crap.

I quit my job.

I'm still stuck paying for an apartment I'm not living in.

I didn't call and cancel my phone plan soon enough.

However, in between it all there were some things that went completely perfect.

You just have to look for the good and focus on it so the rest will seem small.

While visiting my grandma at the hospital I realized what an amazing person she is. 

While talking to the mom and sister of the man who hit her she said, " Can you please tell 'man' to come see me. Tell him I would love to talk to him. I know it must be so hard for him but this isn't his fault."

Then this is what she said when he did come to see her, " Oh 'name', I'm so happy you could come see me. I can't imagine what you are going through. (This coming from an 80 year old woman sitting in a hospital bed with a broken collarbone, broken pelvis, sore everywhere, and a husband who she hasn't seen since the accident and was then currently in a different hospital than herself getting tests done.) I am just so glad you could come see me. I've been trying to imagine how I would feel if I was in your shoes and I just cant. I'm just so happy to see you here." 

I wish I had recorded that moment.

 Could you blame this sweet little lady had she been angry with him? I think not, yet there she sat in pain worrying more about the healing process of this man than herself.

Sometimes in life people are put in a situation that will show us just who they really are. My grandma showed that in this weak moment when everything could have been centered around her she was only worried about the pain of others. I love her so much. She is so sweet.

Oh lovely.

Pranks

I dunno bout you but I find pranks so funny. This weekend I pulled a few really good ones with some help from others. It was great. Well the person helping me pull these off decided to turn it around on me. So I start getting these texts and I'm completely convinced this person is in trouble. Getting a little freaked out here. Then the person stops texting me. Naturally, gullible me, I'm caught up in this prank believing everything and this person falls asleep without telling me "got ya" or "just kidding". Am I a little ticked from lack of sleep......yes, yes I am.

 Oh and these pics are just funny.

Cant forget a song for music monday.....Fast Car - Boyce Avenue or.....Colbie Caillat - Breakeven/Fast Car

Creeps....they exist.

Warning: This post is long...but creeps and stalkers is a big deal.

(source)

So in a way we are all creeps right? 

I mean I can't be the only one out there who stalks people on facebook... I hope that's the case cuz I'm telling everyone I'm a stalker right now.

Anyway I've had people who I found to be very creepy on facebook. You know those ppl who you see are online and you quickly hide your availability in hopes they didn't notice you were on. However, sometimes you just ain't fast enough and they have already started to just be straight up creepy.

Well problem solved, delete them.

It works.

BUT.....

Lately I have been having creep problems that are not so easily solved. In the last two weeks I have been a little scared out of my mind. 

 CREEPS IN C-TOWN!!!

My two near death experiences....haha 

STORY 1:

 So one day I decide to go for a walk because I had a lot on my mind. Did I mention it was about 10:30 at night.....ya it gets dark at around five thirty. I was pretty much in my own bubble thinking through a whole load of stuff. When I realized there were two guys walking across the middle of the street towards me. So naturally I whipped out my phone ready to make a call if needed. They started asking me questions. "Do you have a smoke?", "You from around here?", etc. So naturally to the first question I said no. Then all that made sense to me was to get away. So I just started walking away from them. Luckily there was some distance between us, but they still kept following me. I could hear the guy asking for my number but I just kept walking. Then he kept saying "Damn, she's sexy, and she knows it too" to his friend. Then to me "Shit your hot." (sorry just quoting here). At this point I was a little nervous wreck, picking up my pace just a little bit. Luckily for me I could tell his friend was trying to get him to forget about me and head back in the direction they were headed in the first place. So.... nothing awful happened to me but I think I'm going to stay away from the night walks by myself. I mean still creepy right!?!?

STORY 2:

At the beginning of this week I bought a gym pass. The location of this gym is creepy on its own. It's in the basement of the town pool. Weird right. Basements are freaky. I walk down the stairs and a guy greets me when I walk in. Great, I don't have the place to myself. So I start going through my regular routine. Then he starts talking to me. "So what is there to do in this town?" WARNING BELLS RINGING!! haha. So I gave him the typical response you know the one "Not much its a small town... blah blah." Then he says, "Ya, it seems like everyone here is Mormon or married. You're probably both?" Looks at me with this curious answer my question look. Creep. So I just said, "Yup, I'm mormon." Continuing on with my business and trying to get him to bud out. No such luck! He starts giving me his life story where he went to school, how old he is (27....freaky), how he is single, how he dropped out, how he makes bank on the rigs, and to my dismay so much more!!!! (Also he threw in there how I wouldn't like to work there even though the money is good the atmosphere is awful for girls because all the guys are creeps...... clearly!) 

Then he starts talking about how great his life is because he doesn't have a ton of kids and a wife he's strapped down to. Then he stares at me... no he stares at my body and says, "You don't want to have kids. It would be so hard to get that body after that." Eeek... leave me alone buddy.

 I go back to the treadmill thinking he'll stop talking to me if I am on there. No such luck. My friend starts texting me on his lunch break so I'm thinking awesome nothing like texting to make someone feel shunned.  However, he takes it upon himself to tell me, "Hey now, stop texting and start working out." HEY DUDE!  I don't know you, bud out!" I walk away from him yet again and go over to the scale. Then I go over to this sweet machine that tells you what percentage of body fat you are. Next thing I know he is standing right behind me saying, "How does that work?". FREAK I HAVE A PERSONAL BUBBLE SPACE AND YOU'RE IN IT! Whatever I told him how it worked and walked back to the treadmill happy he was preoccupied. Few seconds later he is standing in front of me. "I hope you aren't one of those girls overly concerned with what scales and things like that tell you. From what I can see, " giving me the once over, "you have nothing to worry about." Continues on about girls insecurities and giving me creepy compliments. "If a guy ever tells you to lose weight or anything like that slap him because you do not need to."

Then he asks me where are the good places to eat in town are. Then he says, "Could you just make me something?"

Remember how I have never met this guy before in my life!

He continues to ask me questions trying to get me to talk to him. "When do you come work out? Do you work out everyday?" Ya don't worry I didn't give him legit answers for those. I cut my workout short switched my shoes, gathered up my things, and put my coat on. Next thing I know he heads out saying, "Bye, I hope you have a really great day." Great, you would leave just as I am. Ya, guess who is at the top of the stairs waiting. Opens the door for me and walks beside me towards my truck because naturally the hotel he's staying at is in that direction. As I'm getting in my truck he says, "Well, in case nobody tells you this today, you are really beautiful. Have an amazing day." Then thank heavens he walks away!

No joke I gave him one word answers. I would walk away from him after I answered a question to go get a drink or get on a machine far away from him, I really tried avoiding him, and it may be hard to believe but I was pretty sure I was being rude. Some people are just straight up stalkerish creepy. 

I had a dream some guys were chasing me last night and I was running home trying to get away.... ya I think I'm a little paranoid now. 

Mmmmmm

Love me some Parachute =)

Too much time on my hands.

Haha Malfoy's face!

Oh Ellen.

No way........

....technically its still Monday to me. I still haven't gone to sleep so I feel like music monday hasn't officially ended haha and I just love Safetysuit so enjoy this Safetysuit - Let go.

Also.......if you happened to watch Hart of Dixie you may recognize this amazing song..

Oh joy!

I'm super excited for Christmas. I'm excited to see all these girls! I miss their faces so very much. We are all a little odd and we are all rather different. It's weird how our unique personalities can all get along and that we have stayed friends for so long.

I'm going to go listen to Christmas music now and help my mom put up all our decorations. Just one step closer to Christmas time and one step closer to partying with these four lovely ladies. Love. Love. Love.

By far the cutest halloween costume!

Awwwww... UP.

Hello song. I like you.

And I also like this one.

Fears

Do you ever have those moments when your thoughts start to haunt you?

They just stick with you and then they are with you when you sleep. I woke up from an awful dream the other day and it all seemed so real. It was like I had woken up from dreaming about an instance that really did happen because it was so vivid. 

I'd like to not feel so fragile all the time. 

I'd like more control of everything around me.

I wish I had a switch I could turn off when my dreams become not so dreamy.

(source)

I'd like to have it back just the way you found it.

Remember

Sometimes life just sort of runs you over, and you completely forget to reflect on things that are most important to you.

"Seventeen Miracles" is a beautiful movie.. It reminded me that everything in life happens for a reason. Our Father is always with us. It makes me want to be an even better person. So much was sacrificed by the early saints of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. There is so much more I can do and so much more I can give just to try and come close to the trials of those who crossed the plains in the handcart companies.

I hope many people get to watch this movie. There are so many movies out there in the world, but isn't it great when you can watch a true story and just feel warm and good inside. 

Now to top everything off one of my favorite sunday songs was played throughout the movie which is....Savior, Redeemer of My Soul. What a lovely music monday =)

Lame Sauce.

I feel dumb for only posting on mondays..... because I love music it makes it easy.

Well maybe I'll do better this week haha.

And the song is..... Skyscraper - Tyler Ward.

Enjoy

Mud mud mud

So this week I may have spent a lot of time with mud.
At work.
My truck was stuck in it.
My truck was covered in it.
I got other peoples trucks covered in it.
I found this cool little place that is called Cahoon's Crossing. It's basically a mud road then you cross a creek then a really really muddy road where you can test out the four wheel drive haha.
So to go along with my love of mud. I want to dedicate this song to last week.

I like this.

"I find the whole concept of being ‘sexy’ embarrassing and confusing. If I do an interview with photographs people desperately want to change me - dye my hair blonder, pluck my eyebrows, give me a fringe. Then there’s the choice of clothes. I know everyone wants a picture of me in a mini-skirt. But that’s not me. I feel uncomfortable. I’d never go out in a mini-skirt. It’s nothing to do with protecting the Hermione image. I wouldn’t do that. Personally, I don’t actually think it’s even that sexy. What’s sexy about saying, ‘I’m here with my boobs out and a short skirt, have a look at everything I’ve got?’ My idea of sexy is that less is more. The less you reveal the more people can wonder. " - Emma Watson

gimmie gimmie

I want a truck.
I want a sports car.
I want a jeep.
I want a silver porsche... or mr. beans car.
I want to have millions of those smelly trees so my car always smells amazing.
I want some sweet rims.
I want to make up my own licence plate.
I want a wicked stereo system.
I want the cooling/heated seats buttons.
I want a heated steering wheel.
I want XM radio tuned to the highway.
I want a portable vacuum in my trunk.
I want to have a little soccer ball hanging from my mirror w/ my grad tassle. Tacky...yes =)
Even this could work just fix it up a little haha.

Sadly, I think a vehicle of any kind is not in my future.

Give it a few years....maybe?

Music for your Monday

So all week this song has just kept a smile on my face.
I danced to it.
I sang along with it.
I sang it in the shower.
I drove around listening to it.
I hung out with Jillian Michael's, listening to this in the background. (Strange I know)
I made dinner listening to this song.
I prepared myself for an intense weekend listening to this.
Yes, pretty sure in the last week this song became my top played song.

All About Us - He Is We ft. Aaron Gillespie

Listen to it while it's blasted.....makes it so much better =)
Since I'm not a huge fan of owl city I prefer this version the best.
Sorry it's nothing new.

such is life...

I wish I would've looked farther down each road, in life, I was shown.

 I could have been more.

Somethings can't be undone.

I wish I had matured a little faster.

I wish I hadn't hurt people.

I wish I had been a better friend.

I wish I had smiled more.

I wish I had made more people's days.

I wish I would have worked harder.

I wish I would've thought less about me.

I wish I would have looked harder.

I wish I would have forgave faster.

I wish I would have laughed things off.

I wish I would've been a better sister.

I wish I would've helped my mom more.

I wish I wouldn't have taken things for granted.

I wish I would've been more thoughtful.

I wish I could've seen past the present.
I wish I hadn't forgot.

I wish I would have seen what mattered most.

I wish I could've wanted what I want now.

I wish I would've said I love you more.

....but such is my life

.... and now I know just a little bit more....

and now I know

My FIRST.... music monday =)

Haha so I recently bought a bunch of music and I just have to share some of it because I love music!

 to the country lovers: blake shelton - who are you when i'm not looking
                                     lady antebellum - dancin' away with my heart
                                       scotty mccreery - the trouble with girls
                         personal fav: julia sheer - airliner (sooooo good found this one from my friend Jane)


girly songs: jessie j -who you are
                      megan nicole - b-e-a-utiful
                         pia toscano - this time


re-done: boyce avenue ft. kina grannis- fast car

Then a special song that I would like to dedicate to all our loved ones out there who have had cancer:
 martina mcbride - im gonna love you through it.
I'm so grateful for a grandma who survived cancer when my mom was nineteen and then again ten years later when it came back. I am grateful for a grandpa who is just now getting back to his normal self after all his treatments. Can't forget my uncle who is also a cancer survivor. I love them all so much and I'm so happy they have been given a second chance. Nothing can replace the love in a family.

Well I hope there is something that interests you. Sorry there are so many I just love music too much to try and cut some out =)

What question can you never truthfully answer "Yes"?

So sometimes my brain drives me crazy. 


You know those moments when life seems crazy and you just need a break. For example maybe you have a headache and your at a family reunion.... for some reason loads of children and headaches just don't mix well.

Well.... I'd compare that situation to those moments when you just can't shut your brain off.

It's funny how are brain works and all the crazy different things we go through in our minds all day.

Isn't it weird how when you don't want to think about anything that that seems to be when it's the hardest to do just that. Our own minds like to mess with us.... how retarded is that??? =) haha

I have yet to master my mind.

Answer : Are you asleep?


Side note.... did you know you can skype on facebook????!!!! So awesome. I love my old roommates =D

Dance like no one is watching

Today I was in my room with my nephew and he was playing with everything he could get his hands on because he is just learning to walk.

Anyway my lab top is playing music while I'm doing my hair and where them girls at came on...so naturally in front of my big mirror in my room I started dancing while I was getting ready.

Ryker was soon less interested in playing with my brush and more interested in my sweet moves :D  haha. They were so good he just sat on the floor laughing at me. I like him.  Then I picked him up and was waving my free arm around facing the mirror and when he saw us in the mirror he started waving his little arms around laughing. So cute wish I had it on video!!!

PS!!!! I got a favicon. Cheers. Aaaaaaannnnndddd.....Day after you - Chad Brownlee great song =)


PS....again?? My summer vacation was spent at echo of course! It was beautiful. I loved every part of it....except for sharing a room with a grumpy ear infected nephew...(before the meds and before he became my happy/ silly dance partner) can I just say I felt like a mom who had to get up with the kids during the night lol. Well you can see a few pics of our holiday here!

Why do I do this to myself!!!

Okay here's what's up.... I work outdoors. It gets tiring working in the sun all day. Today I worked 10...and a  1/2 hours!! This is beginning to happen quite often and it's only going to get worse..... There will be so much more to do once my brother Jaden starts school again. Then it will be just me and my daddy again. Oh boi!! haha

Anywhoooo back to what I'm trying to get at is that I'm a tired looking person. When I get home from work I have no more energy so I started watching a new TV series called......

dun dun dun.....

THE LYING GAME.


So far I like a lot. If you too are tired and need to pass some time before you fall into bed I suggest it.

Speaking of beds there is a drool stain on my pillow. How lovely.

Sending out my wishes.

Some things float away.... but do they come back to where you think they should?

There is one thing I am always sure about.

There is one family I always love.
There are sisters that taught me how to grow up and whats important.
There are brothers who make me feel loved. One brother who always makes me laugh and goofs off just like me.

There is one friend who always listens and has theeee most greatest advice.
There is one friend who makes me believe I can do anything and pushes me to step out of my ruts.
There is one friend I want to push in a mud puddle because she is so honest and herself... I miss her.
There is one friend who was the best roommate a girl could ask for.

There is one friend who will never understand the changes they made in my life and how they helped me become the person I want to be. A friend who knew everything about me with no pretending they simply knew all of me.

(source)

Significant day. Frightening day.

I'm wishing that the only thing that has and will change is time, even with everything else that goes on in between—some things will just simply always have there place.

wish.wish.wish

changerooooo

So this is what i'm used to........
                 being a brunette.

I like having me some brown hair I think it looks better than my natural dirty (almost) blonde color haha.

BUT.......

I had a daring moment.....

                                    and decided I should go bleach blonde.

My sister ( aka hair dresser) was not so gung ho? about this idea.

She thinks I should have dark hair.

We are smart sisters though and we made a compromise.

Definitely different but I like it.

It's darker than this in real life haha darn lights only pulled out the blonde in the picture!

Oh, so its got blonde highlights in it, mixed with some light brown low lights, and its solid brown underneath.

Took an eternally long time but it's a nice change :)

by far new favorite.

Kira Isabella - Love Me Like That
http://youtu.be/S5Y-WU7V7n8

Story of me

....not always simple

                                 ....not always perfect but it works. :)

Popcorn popping!

Hello, I'm Karlee and I love popcorn. Today was a good day for making Kool-aid popcorn. The family was gone and Taylor and I had the kitchen all to ourselves so this is what we did.....

Recipe

Takes a little bit of time but oh well I had this Saturday off :)

This is blue raspberry. VERY sweet!

Yes, my hair is significantly lighter than normal. Not by choice—stupid sun lol.

 Cherry is really good.

The final product. Oih, so much popcorn! haha

Cherry, Grape, and Blue Raspberry. Yum! 

"GRAPE! I'm gonna get grape, or cherry. They're both... favorites, so either one is good, but if they have both, I'll get grape, because grape is a little more favorite. But if they don't have grape it's like alright its fine, cause cherry's favorite anyway. It's like another favorite, but not as much. Not as much favorite. But they're both good. They're both good."

Now its time to clean up the sticky mess...yay? haha

It all makes sense

Have you ever looked at something your parents do and thought, "Ah, it makes sense now!" Well since being home I look at my parents I just realize why I do certain things.

 Like how I never put dishes in the dishwasher except on sundays like my mom. Just like my mom everything I wear has to be somewhat matching.

How I always giggle and snicker at something funny I'm think about then realizing I didn't say it out loud just like my dad.  Also, we both laugh a lot. Whenever meeting new people, having an awkward conversation, or when we're just not sure how to respond to a certain situation, we laugh.

I love my parents they are so funny.

The other day at work we were in our truck driving away from a house when these two boys drove by on bikes with toy guns. As we started driving away they followed us shooting at us with their toy guns. When my dad noticed he turned in his seat leaned outside the truck window and started pretending to shoot back with his hands. He made the shooting noises as well. Haha. It was the funniest thing ever and then the little kids were laughing and shooting all the more.

Then there was the time we were fixing sprinklers..... haha he pulled off one of the heads to a sprinkler to clean it out. Well when he tried to put it back together the water pressure blew it out of his hands and the water sprayed right up into his face blowing his hat up and away. Jaden and I sure enjoyed mocking him about playing in the sprinklers instead of working.

I love my job. It's awesome working for my dad. Even when he acts like a twelve year old.  :)

Summer

I love summer. I love that we took the boat out today. I love that it was hot. I love that Ryker has a cute little mini life jacket that pushes his cheeks up,. I love that friends come visit. I love that people are happy in the summer. I love that your little bro can teach you how to ride a ripstick and jump off curbs haha. I love that you get to wear shorts, summer dresses and fun bright colors. I love waterton. I love that its beautiful. I love that there are thunderstorms. I love so many other things about summer but for now I'm content to just leave it at that.

Working hard or hardly working?

Tonight I decided it was a good day to bake something. I'm not an amazingly talented chef but I'm not completely lost when it come to cooking. Ya, so anyway despite my raw talent at cooking, I simply decided to make biscuits. My family was ready to devour them as soon as they were done, but my mother said it was to late so we put them away to eat for breakfast.

My sister was intent on having one. She joked around that she would do the one push-up she could and some jumping jacks in order to have one.  I seriously don't even know if she can do one :P haha Anywhooo, we let her have one and they left. Then my mom sneakily went off into the living room and came back very disappointed at informing us she could only do three push-ups. She funny. 

She was pretty offended when my dad and I started laughing. Whoopsie. Promise we were laughing at her expression and not at the fact she could only do three.  Then of course she challenged us. "Oh ya!! Well it's not as easy as you think. Lets see how many you can do!" 

This is when the family gets a little crazy. You know the competitiveness just starts getting a little intense. Sorta. However.... I beat her yay me. Haha proud to say I did a whole whopping ten! Feel free to brag about how many you can do it will make me even more competitive. My mom was sure she could do eleven now, but her forth one she had to do.... almost the worm just to get her arms back straight haha.

My dad did forty! Pretty proud of that old guy. I think he would have done more if Jaden was home to give him some competition. Jaden who just happened to lift a 150 pound log back into our truck after unloading it at the  dump. (Apparently they have a size limit? Who knew??? haha)

Anyways after that fun little adventure. My mom and dad tried to do this random daily ab routine thing with me that my roommates showed me at school. It was a pretty funny sight. Gotta love family time. 

What makes you smile?

Kate and Jane? Yup this makes me smile.

Lost and Found

Im simply confused.
....and slightly unsure of the future.
Sometimes I like to explore. I like to explore my past.  Recognize everything good and bad, everything I learned and let go, and just how everything fit in to place in my life. My personal little history. I think its crazy how you look back and see just how great it was that you made one simple choice, and to see just how everything fell in afterwards. Sometimes, good or bad, we are just meant to make certain choices and learn from them.

(source)

Right now I'd like to know the next choice I need to make. I'm impatient I don't like to waste time not knowing what's ahead. I guess I simply wish to have a map of my life. However, I haven't had one up to this point and so far life has played out in a way that fits me. So for now I'll simply keep making choices and hopefully they will continue to reveal there significance as I go....

BABIES

I am the new mother of the two most perfect twins!

It's crazy how they fit to me so perfectly.

I couldn't have asked for anything else, somehow they just had to be sent to me.

They wake me up at six..ish begging for me to spend time with them.

I just can't refuse them anything.

I'd like to introduce you to..........

.....my two sweethearts that literally run my world.

.Love my Asics. 

Epiphany

I have begun to realize one of the major reasons why I loved my dorm/apartment at BYU.
That reason being.....five roommates.

So here's my story... I like my bedroom it is my little haven when I need my space—I love it! However, sharing an apartment with five girls the chances are when you wake up in the night someone else is up, or just simply around. I guess you could say it's comforting to just have people around.

Now if you don't exactly follow me trust me you'll see where I'm coming from soon. Upon coming home again I went back to my old room...downstairs...all alone.

I hate the dark! (I was extra aware of this today because the power was out and there are no windows in my room!!) Call me immature, nieve, or chicken doesn't change anything. haha I'm just scared of the dark when I'm alone. When I have others around me no big deal, but when I'm alone I am really not a fan.

I don't exactly know what scares me most. I just don't like it. I feel like at any moment someone is going to jump out of a corner and try to scare me whether it's my brother, a mouse, or a monster under my bed I am not sure. Something just wants to scare me.

I remember when I was little and no limb could be off the edge of my bed or I would freak out and my blood would start pumping. Guess we all had the monster under the bed stage. Even though I don't believe there is a monster under my bed now, it's been ingrained in my mind not to let any part of my body hang over the edge. Haha talk about habit formed condition.

Or how I would have a recurring dream about snakes climbing the stairs to come get me. I remember waking up once and running to my mom, but once I got to her room I didn't want to have to wake her. This led to me sleeping on her floor until I realized it would be even easier for the snakes to get me so I ran back to my bed.

I can think of so many reasons why people hate the dark
1. stub your toes
2. trip over things
3. miss the last stair/think you already stepped off the last stair
4. run into things (once I played murder in the dark...result was a bloody nose from running into the ping pong table in my basement haha)
5. mistake a streetlight for a dinosaur's eye (note to self - don't allow your kids to watch jurassic park at a young age)
6. your mind tricks you into seeing things that aren't there
7. spiders...bet you've all heard stories about the spiders that crawl over you whilst you sleep :(
8. in movies.... bad things seem to happen in the dark

So I love being home but I would love it even more if I wasn't sharing the basement with myself and my imagination. It's not so much the dark I'm scared of but every little thing I'm not aware of because of the dark. I think it's about time I got a window put into my room don't you?

Don't you ever give up

Crazy how my first year at BYU is........... over! I'm done with ComD, I'm done with Stats, American Heritage, Political Science, and I'm done with Book of Mormon (of course I mean the class... I'll never really be done with it :) haha
Anyways what I'm really happy about today is the fact that I applied for a scholarship a ways back. When it came time to apply I honestly thought "What's the point?" wah ha ho was I wrong. Luckily for me my roommate put the idea in my head that I might as well try. IT PAYED OFF!! haha basically I'm extra excited for next semester now knowing I'll have a little more money in my piggy bank to pay for rent instead :P.

Also, I wanted to apologize for being the worst blogger ever, but life has been crazy busy as the semester came to a close. Anyway on a better note last time I blogged I gave an updated picture of my biological family—here are pictures of my adopted family and our attempt at making awkward family pictures.... yay!

 Fun times! Miss BYU very much, my friends, and my roommates! Hopefully it's going to be a fun summer. I start work tomorrow woot woot. Here comes the sun; here comes the money.

Also, picked up my friend Jane from the airport yesterday!! Yup had tons of fun with all my friends yesterday missed those girls a lot. Can't wait to party all summer long lol.

Family+Friends

I love my friends very very very very much!! I got to see my beautiful friend Kate today and she is more loverly than ever! ....and my friend Michelle did a super cute post with pictures of our last photo shoot here. Life is good. I can't wait to go home. It's just time to go home and take a break. Miss my fam, miss my little home town, miss my friends, and miss when days weren't filled with reading, writing, and studying.

Haha yeah, so i'm a little awkward in pictures..... Here's my fam :)

H2O....heck yes, i'm a fan!!

So, as awful as it is, I am addicted to ice, water, slurpies, milkshakes, and snow cones. Okay....so basically anything that involves ice in any kind of form. I just love cold food. I can still hear my mom telling me to stop chewing on ice while we're sitting and playing cards. Or how whenever I'd go to my friend Shell's house.... if anyone asked what we should snack on...I always wanted a snow cone(shaved ice). Well, anyway to make this story short my friends. My roommate Chelsey brought us a little shaved ice maker from home. It's the greatest. We crush up ice and popsicles and it equals the best snack ever. So we've really been having fun with it ever since our blender broke :).

This is Chelsey. We were having troubles with the colors on my camera.

and my awesome roommates :D

Ello

Been awhile. Life has been a little crazy, and still gets crazier. I could list off a million different crazy things that have been happening this last month, but I think I'll spare you all lol. I came to a significant realization this month. I can be a super reserved person.... I don't really share myself easily with people. I feel like I'm just starting to get to the point where my new friends are becoming people I actually trust to share things with. It's been super hard. I've always been pretty good at talking and meeting new people, but really letting people get to know me is a hard thing. It's completely freaky to open up to new people and show them exactly who you are in hopes they accept every little part of you. Sometimes I unintentionally push people out of my life. I think it's some kind of defence mechanism. It's so much easier to push people away and have them be the one that seeks you out. Possibly selfish thinking, but I don't do it on purpose. It's just sort of how I work.

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Sometimes the best thing in the world is those special people who reach out to keep you. Those people who won't let you go despite you stubborn attitude, your protective nature, or your lack of trust.
When you can't say the words lyrics will speak them for you.
"Hold my hand, baby I promise that I'll do
All I can, things will get better if you just
Hold my hand, nothing will come between us if you just
Hold, hold my, hold my, hold my hand. Hold my hand."
Things can always get better. I mean really how many bad things can be thrown at you before something falls into place? Life always gets better.

Optimism

If the world is cold—then i'll build a fire.

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Sometimes there are ugly colors that you normally wouldn't want to use, but in the end all the colors you use will come together to make a beautiful picture. Who cares about how awful they seem at the time. Remember, there is always a bigger picture. So for the good and the bad moments....thanks for coloring my life.

Laughter

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"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter." e.e. cummings

So I love to be happy. It’s the best. The other day while talking to my little brother he kept saying “tomorrow I love ya, I love ya tomorrow”. He couldn’t really remember all the words to the song, or the melody for that matter, but it was super cute and funny. I couldn’t stop smiling for a long time. I just miss my family. Especially my sweet forgetful mother. Haha I forgot some stuff at home over christmas break so I called my mom and asked her to send them to me... ya she’s still working on that. It’s okay though the way I see it, i’ll be home soon and can get it then. 

I really miss my brothers. Ryan always makes me feel so loved. Jaden is always the tough guy who randomly slips up and shows me in some way that he loves me. (Oh, those moments are the best haha) Taylor is the best because he just loves everyone. When he was little if he ever asked for something we’d ask “What do you say?” to which he’d always respond “Please and thank-you, I love you”. Haha he was the cutest little suck up. Oh how I love little moments that make you laugh. Another story about Taylor, when he was little, he would answer the phone and say “Hi. Who is it? What’d you want?” Except we had this weird phone where when you picked up you had to wait a second then say hello or they wouldn’t hear it...so it was always funny when Taylor would answer the phone because whoever was calling would only hear “Who is it? What’d you want?” 

Do you know what I really miss? My dad, he is amazing. Best thing about him is his calm attitude. He’s always smiling about something, or he’s always cracking jokes and laughing at his own jokes. I miss that. My dad always made my day brighter just by being himself. I need to be more like him and just smile for no reason; just be happy with everything life throws at me no matter how bad it may be or may seem.

I love Sundays

(my religion)

I just love sundays. They are always just exactly what I need to get my week going. I'm so grateful that my parents raised me in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. If you love your family then you would enjoy this video.

 I hope you all have a great week. Spread the love. Happy valentines day tomorrow!

Another Ending

My latest heartbreak...

Can you believe it’s almost valentines day! February should be such a romantic and lovely month. I can’t believe I have to do this so close to such a special day; goodbyes are never easy. This one I know will be even worse. It doesn't seem right to end this way, but you asked for it. I don't know how you could expect anything more from me.

It seems like just yesterday we met; you made me laugh, you made me smile, and you even made my life exciting. You taught me so many cool and interesting new things that I never would have known without you. You filled my day and made me constantly busy doing something. Life seemed so great.

We spent so much time together. You spent many mornings by my side. Many long hours in the library together. I really thought we had something special.  So many hours late at night spent with you. Did those not mean or add up to anything for you? I thought you'd appreciate that I gave up so many other dates and options for you. I know I’d heard about all you’re past relationships and how most them ended badly. I thought things would be different for us. However, after thursday night I just don’t think I can do this anymore. After all we've been through—how could you? I thought after all the work I put into us you would have rewarded me. I’m sorry but I think it’s time we go our separate ways. This relationship really can’t work anymore. You betrayed me when I needed you to help me out the most. All that's left to say is....

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good riddance American Heritage good luck with your next relationship!

Dear midterms, you are cordially uninvited.

So this week I fell upon a natural disaster. This wreck is me!! For some strange reason I somehow found away to forget I was in college. Crazy, right? How do you forget that? Haha I just realized that even though I’m back in Provo and at school my head has still been on holiday. This holiday caused me to have a little freak out....possibly some small stress break downs here and there. Luckily I have awesome roommates and friends to keep me on track. I made it through a test and a few quizzes without dissappointment, but really I need to get focused again! Especially with three papers coming up in the very near future as well as an American Heritage midterm....eeeek! Being Canadian makes me American...., but in this situation I feel like I am not American at all haha. An amazing girl from back home shared this quote on facebook and I had to share it, it’s the best:

FINAL PRAYER.

Now I lay me down to study,

I pray the Lord I won't go nutty,

if I should fail to learn this junk,

I pray the Lord I will not flunk.

Don't pity me at all,

just lay my bones in the study hall,

tell my prof I did my best,

then pile my books upon my chest.

Now I lay me down to rest,

and pray I'll pass tomorrows test,

If I should die before I wake,

that's one less test i'll have to take!

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So one night the roommates and I got talking about how we wish our apartment felt more like a home, and we decided a pet would make it a home. Unfortunately for us, you’re not allowed to have pets in heritage halls....but we figured if we could get a little tea cup pig Amy (the RA) would never notice him during cleaning checks if we made a friend watch him while she was over. I think if we would have followed through with it, this cute little pig could take away all my stress. In all honesty a Wells 152 mascot would be pretty legit. :D Hope everyone is doing wonderful. If this little guy doesn't brighten your day I don't know what will.

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Ps. Yes I did get my housing set up for next fall/winter semester!! Craaaazy. Jefferson 37 hear I come. Haha

Everyday life

"When I get where I'm going on the far side of the sky, the first thing that I'm gonna do, is spread my wings and fly. “-Brad Paisley. 

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Lately I have been thinking a lot about the future. What’s coming for me, and what’s not? What’s going to work out, or what isn’t? What things will I accomplish? What things will slow me down? I know it’s cliche to say, but wouldn’t it be nice to see a picture of yourself down the road—see what choices helped you and which deterred you. I know it’s the choices that shape and make us, but sometimes I’m scared to mess up. I'd just like to stick to a plan that was perfect, a plan that could make me so.—drawn up—and I just follow. It scares me to go into things blind.

I know right, where’s the thrill in that? I guess that’s why life doesn’t work that way. It would be far to boring and uninteresting if everything was put down in front of us, telling us what to do. I’m just trying to accept that the world isn’t in my palms. Sometimes we just have to know when to take a deep breath and hold on tight. Take on everything as best you can.

The funny thing about life is that you have all these enormous choices to make, and after each one you think you’ve finally got to where you’ve been going. Ha! Funny. You conquer one mountain only to see another one lies on your path when you get to the top. It’s actually pretty amazing sometimes. The realization of each conquered moment is amazing. I guess we have to face one in order to realize it’s not too hard, then allowing us to take on the next one. Slightly building us up to be ready for each new step. I just keep hoping I get to were I want to be; I make it over each new mountain.

”I watch the stars from my window sill. The whole world is moving and I'm standing still” - The Weepies. It’s hard not to feel a little small in this world you often forget important details: your choices do matter, your actions do affect those around you, and you’re not as small as you think. Each small choice now can have a big effect later. If you fall don't be shocked, don't be scared, and don't lose the nerve to get back up. There is always one person who always has his arms open for you when your choices seem to hard to bear on your own.