Ello

Been awhile. Life has been a little crazy, and still gets crazier. I could list off a million different crazy things that have been happening this last month, but I think I'll spare you all lol. I came to a significant realization this month. I can be a super reserved person.... I don't really share myself easily with people. I feel like I'm just starting to get to the point where my new friends are becoming people I actually trust to share things with. It's been super hard. I've always been pretty good at talking and meeting new people, but really letting people get to know me is a hard thing. It's completely freaky to open up to new people and show them exactly who you are in hopes they accept every little part of you. Sometimes I unintentionally push people out of my life. I think it's some kind of defence mechanism. It's so much easier to push people away and have them be the one that seeks you out. Possibly selfish thinking, but I don't do it on purpose. It's just sort of how I work.

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Sometimes the best thing in the world is those special people who reach out to keep you. Those people who won't let you go despite you stubborn attitude, your protective nature, or your lack of trust.
When you can't say the words lyrics will speak them for you.
"Hold my hand, baby I promise that I'll do
All I can, things will get better if you just
Hold my hand, nothing will come between us if you just
Hold, hold my, hold my, hold my hand. Hold my hand."
Things can always get better. I mean really how many bad things can be thrown at you before something falls into place? Life always gets better.