Sunday, September 9, 2012

This summer was amazing! I especially loved when Jane came home from Texas to visit. This blog post by her mentions a lot of memories we both shared so naturally I just had to blog about it at well. Here is the link to her summer... with a bit of me in it as well :)

A summer shared with Jane 

Summer should never have to end... I'm going to start having a fall/summer and then a winter/summer. Living life. Be happy for everyday and everything you are blessed with no matter the season or whether or not the sun is shining.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Sometimes I put myself through things that are much too hard for me to handle and then I am in this place I do not want to be. I just want to run away. Far away. Somewhere where life is simple and all I see is black and white. Color distracts me and confuses me and makes me see options that shouldn't be there. A hug would be lovely... and to be told everything is going to be okay.
Running away would be great; if you can't erase something then get away from it.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

It's a really long journey

Ooo karlee you done it again you crazy girl. I wish I was better at controlling my thoughts. Your mind has his way of imagining the best possible picture it can create and then bam. You hit the brick wall of reality and your back to square one.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

What do you see?

Sometimes I just sit and think about all the things I want out of life. Some people would rather just take whatever it is life puts in their path but that's not me. I look at all the things I don't yet have and just imagine how great it will be when I have what I'm holding on for. I'm not talking about 'things' like the things I'd wish to have on pinterest. No I am referring to much bigger things than that.When you know what you need to be happy for the rest of your life little moments can distract you, but ultimately you never settle for less than what you know is right for you. There are so many beautiful things in my life sometimes I forget them, sometimes I don't notice them, and sometimes I avoid them. I don't know why I do but it happens. However, it makes them so much more beautiful when you notice what's been missing.
I wonder if I will have all these dreams, wishes and promises. Will they be as perfect as I imagine them to be? Right now I feel like I just want to reach out and bear hug my future just run at it full tilt, but no matter how fast I run my timing isn't my own. It's like swimming up stream. So instead I'm clenching my fists as tight as I can on what little I have to hold on to. Simply waiting for the beautiful things I see to be right in front of me; doing all that I can to make the waiting not so long, but knowing only so much is in my control.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Oh shabang.

It's been an awful few weeks.
Everything that could go wrong did.
I went in the ditch.
My grandparents were hit by a vehicle as they were crossing the street.
There were some huge miscommunications going on that went a little to far!
I got my wisdom teeth out.
I still have chunks of teeth stuck in there....crap.
I quit my job.
I'm still stuck paying for an apartment I'm not living in.
I didn't call and cancel my phone plan soon enough.

However, in between it all there were some things that went completely perfect.
You just have to look for the good and focus on it so the rest will seem small.

While visiting my grandma at the hospital I realized what an amazing person she is. 
While talking to the mom and sister of the man who hit her she said, " Can you please tell 'man' to come see me. Tell him I would love to talk to him. I know it must be so hard for him but this isn't his fault."

Then this is what she said when he did come to see her, " Oh 'name', I'm so happy you could come see me. I can't imagine what you are going through. (This coming from an 80 year old woman sitting in a hospital bed with a broken collarbone, broken pelvis, sore everywhere, and a husband who she hasn't seen since the accident and was then currently in a different hospital than herself getting tests done.) I am just so glad you could come see me. I've been trying to imagine how I would feel if I was in your shoes and I just cant. I'm just so happy to see you here." 
I wish I had recorded that moment.
 Could you blame this sweet little lady had she been angry with him? I think not, yet there she sat in pain worrying more about the healing process of this man than herself.

Sometimes in life people are put in a situation that will show us just who they really are. My grandma showed that in this weak moment when everything could have been centered around her she was only worried about the pain of others. I love her so much. She is so sweet.