This summer was amazing! I especially loved when Jane came home from Texas to visit. This blog post by her mentions a lot of memories we both shared so naturally I just had to blog about it at well. Here is the link to her summer... with a bit of me in it as well :)

A summer shared with Jane 

Summer should never have to end... I'm going to start having a fall/summer and then a winter/summer. Living life. Be happy for everyday and everything you are blessed with no matter the season or whether or not the sun is shining.

Sometimes I put myself through things that are much too hard for me to handle and then I am in this place I do not want to be. I just want to run away. Far away. Somewhere where life is simple and all I see is black and white. Color distracts me and confuses me and makes me see options that shouldn't be there. A hug would be lovely... and to be told everything is going to be okay.

Running away would be great; if you can't erase something then get away from it.

It's a really long journey

Ooo karlee you done it again you crazy girl. I wish I was better at controlling my thoughts. Your mind has his way of imagining the best possible picture it can create and then bam. You hit the brick wall of reality and your back to square one.

What do you see?

Sometimes I just sit and think about all the things I want out of life. Some people would rather just take whatever it is life puts in their path but that's not me. I look at all the things I don't yet have and just imagine how great it will be when I have what I'm holding on for. I'm not talking about 'things' like the things I'd wish to have on pinterest. No I am referring to much bigger things than that.When you know what you need to be happy for the rest of your life little moments can distract you, but ultimately you never settle for less than what you know is right for you. There are so many beautiful things in my life sometimes I forget them, sometimes I don't notice them, and sometimes I avoid them. I don't know why I do but it happens. However, it makes them so much more beautiful when you notice what's been missing.

I wonder if I will have all these dreams, wishes and promises. Will they be as perfect as I imagine them to be? Right now I feel like I just want to reach out and bear hug my future just run at it full tilt, but no matter how fast I run my timing isn't my own. It's like swimming up stream. So instead I'm clenching my fists as tight as I can on what little I have to hold on to. Simply waiting for the beautiful things I see to be right in front of me; doing all that I can to make the waiting not so long, but knowing only so much is in my control.

Oh shabang.

It's been an awful few weeks.

Everything that could go wrong did.

I went in the ditch.

My grandparents were hit by a vehicle as they were crossing the street.

There were some huge miscommunications going on that went a little to far!

I got my wisdom teeth out.

I still have chunks of teeth stuck in there....crap.

I quit my job.

I'm still stuck paying for an apartment I'm not living in.

I didn't call and cancel my phone plan soon enough.

However, in between it all there were some things that went completely perfect.

You just have to look for the good and focus on it so the rest will seem small.

While visiting my grandma at the hospital I realized what an amazing person she is. 

While talking to the mom and sister of the man who hit her she said, " Can you please tell 'man' to come see me. Tell him I would love to talk to him. I know it must be so hard for him but this isn't his fault."

Then this is what she said when he did come to see her, " Oh 'name', I'm so happy you could come see me. I can't imagine what you are going through. (This coming from an 80 year old woman sitting in a hospital bed with a broken collarbone, broken pelvis, sore everywhere, and a husband who she hasn't seen since the accident and was then currently in a different hospital than herself getting tests done.) I am just so glad you could come see me. I've been trying to imagine how I would feel if I was in your shoes and I just cant. I'm just so happy to see you here." 

I wish I had recorded that moment.

 Could you blame this sweet little lady had she been angry with him? I think not, yet there she sat in pain worrying more about the healing process of this man than herself.

Sometimes in life people are put in a situation that will show us just who they really are. My grandma showed that in this weak moment when everything could have been centered around her she was only worried about the pain of others. I love her so much. She is so sweet.

Oh lovely.

Pranks

I dunno bout you but I find pranks so funny. This weekend I pulled a few really good ones with some help from others. It was great. Well the person helping me pull these off decided to turn it around on me. So I start getting these texts and I'm completely convinced this person is in trouble. Getting a little freaked out here. Then the person stops texting me. Naturally, gullible me, I'm caught up in this prank believing everything and this person falls asleep without telling me "got ya" or "just kidding". Am I a little ticked from lack of sleep......yes, yes I am.

 Oh and these pics are just funny.

Cant forget a song for music monday.....Fast Car - Boyce Avenue or.....Colbie Caillat - Breakeven/Fast Car

Creeps....they exist.

Warning: This post is long...but creeps and stalkers is a big deal.

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So in a way we are all creeps right? 

I mean I can't be the only one out there who stalks people on facebook... I hope that's the case cuz I'm telling everyone I'm a stalker right now.

Anyway I've had people who I found to be very creepy on facebook. You know those ppl who you see are online and you quickly hide your availability in hopes they didn't notice you were on. However, sometimes you just ain't fast enough and they have already started to just be straight up creepy.

Well problem solved, delete them.

It works.

BUT.....

Lately I have been having creep problems that are not so easily solved. In the last two weeks I have been a little scared out of my mind. 

 CREEPS IN C-TOWN!!!

My two near death experiences....haha 

STORY 1:

 So one day I decide to go for a walk because I had a lot on my mind. Did I mention it was about 10:30 at night.....ya it gets dark at around five thirty. I was pretty much in my own bubble thinking through a whole load of stuff. When I realized there were two guys walking across the middle of the street towards me. So naturally I whipped out my phone ready to make a call if needed. They started asking me questions. "Do you have a smoke?", "You from around here?", etc. So naturally to the first question I said no. Then all that made sense to me was to get away. So I just started walking away from them. Luckily there was some distance between us, but they still kept following me. I could hear the guy asking for my number but I just kept walking. Then he kept saying "Damn, she's sexy, and she knows it too" to his friend. Then to me "Shit your hot." (sorry just quoting here). At this point I was a little nervous wreck, picking up my pace just a little bit. Luckily for me I could tell his friend was trying to get him to forget about me and head back in the direction they were headed in the first place. So.... nothing awful happened to me but I think I'm going to stay away from the night walks by myself. I mean still creepy right!?!?

STORY 2:

At the beginning of this week I bought a gym pass. The location of this gym is creepy on its own. It's in the basement of the town pool. Weird right. Basements are freaky. I walk down the stairs and a guy greets me when I walk in. Great, I don't have the place to myself. So I start going through my regular routine. Then he starts talking to me. "So what is there to do in this town?" WARNING BELLS RINGING!! haha. So I gave him the typical response you know the one "Not much its a small town... blah blah." Then he says, "Ya, it seems like everyone here is Mormon or married. You're probably both?" Looks at me with this curious answer my question look. Creep. So I just said, "Yup, I'm mormon." Continuing on with my business and trying to get him to bud out. No such luck! He starts giving me his life story where he went to school, how old he is (27....freaky), how he is single, how he dropped out, how he makes bank on the rigs, and to my dismay so much more!!!! (Also he threw in there how I wouldn't like to work there even though the money is good the atmosphere is awful for girls because all the guys are creeps...... clearly!) 

Then he starts talking about how great his life is because he doesn't have a ton of kids and a wife he's strapped down to. Then he stares at me... no he stares at my body and says, "You don't want to have kids. It would be so hard to get that body after that." Eeek... leave me alone buddy.

 I go back to the treadmill thinking he'll stop talking to me if I am on there. No such luck. My friend starts texting me on his lunch break so I'm thinking awesome nothing like texting to make someone feel shunned.  However, he takes it upon himself to tell me, "Hey now, stop texting and start working out." HEY DUDE!  I don't know you, bud out!" I walk away from him yet again and go over to the scale. Then I go over to this sweet machine that tells you what percentage of body fat you are. Next thing I know he is standing right behind me saying, "How does that work?". FREAK I HAVE A PERSONAL BUBBLE SPACE AND YOU'RE IN IT! Whatever I told him how it worked and walked back to the treadmill happy he was preoccupied. Few seconds later he is standing in front of me. "I hope you aren't one of those girls overly concerned with what scales and things like that tell you. From what I can see, " giving me the once over, "you have nothing to worry about." Continues on about girls insecurities and giving me creepy compliments. "If a guy ever tells you to lose weight or anything like that slap him because you do not need to."

Then he asks me where are the good places to eat in town are. Then he says, "Could you just make me something?"

Remember how I have never met this guy before in my life!

He continues to ask me questions trying to get me to talk to him. "When do you come work out? Do you work out everyday?" Ya don't worry I didn't give him legit answers for those. I cut my workout short switched my shoes, gathered up my things, and put my coat on. Next thing I know he heads out saying, "Bye, I hope you have a really great day." Great, you would leave just as I am. Ya, guess who is at the top of the stairs waiting. Opens the door for me and walks beside me towards my truck because naturally the hotel he's staying at is in that direction. As I'm getting in my truck he says, "Well, in case nobody tells you this today, you are really beautiful. Have an amazing day." Then thank heavens he walks away!

No joke I gave him one word answers. I would walk away from him after I answered a question to go get a drink or get on a machine far away from him, I really tried avoiding him, and it may be hard to believe but I was pretty sure I was being rude. Some people are just straight up stalkerish creepy. 

I had a dream some guys were chasing me last night and I was running home trying to get away.... ya I think I'm a little paranoid now. 

Mmmmmm

Love me some Parachute =)

Too much time on my hands.

Haha Malfoy's face!

Oh Ellen.

No way........

....technically its still Monday to me. I still haven't gone to sleep so I feel like music monday hasn't officially ended haha and I just love Safetysuit so enjoy this Safetysuit - Let go.

Also.......if you happened to watch Hart of Dixie you may recognize this amazing song..

Oh joy!

I'm super excited for Christmas. I'm excited to see all these girls! I miss their faces so very much. We are all a little odd and we are all rather different. It's weird how our unique personalities can all get along and that we have stayed friends for so long.

I'm going to go listen to Christmas music now and help my mom put up all our decorations. Just one step closer to Christmas time and one step closer to partying with these four lovely ladies. Love. Love. Love.

By far the cutest halloween costume!

Awwwww... UP.

Hello song. I like you.

And I also like this one.

Fears

Do you ever have those moments when your thoughts start to haunt you?

They just stick with you and then they are with you when you sleep. I woke up from an awful dream the other day and it all seemed so real. It was like I had woken up from dreaming about an instance that really did happen because it was so vivid. 

I'd like to not feel so fragile all the time. 

I'd like more control of everything around me.

I wish I had a switch I could turn off when my dreams become not so dreamy.

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I'd like to have it back just the way you found it.

Remember

Sometimes life just sort of runs you over, and you completely forget to reflect on things that are most important to you.

"Seventeen Miracles" is a beautiful movie.. It reminded me that everything in life happens for a reason. Our Father is always with us. It makes me want to be an even better person. So much was sacrificed by the early saints of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. There is so much more I can do and so much more I can give just to try and come close to the trials of those who crossed the plains in the handcart companies.

I hope many people get to watch this movie. There are so many movies out there in the world, but isn't it great when you can watch a true story and just feel warm and good inside. 

Now to top everything off one of my favorite sunday songs was played throughout the movie which is....Savior, Redeemer of My Soul. What a lovely music monday =)

Lame Sauce.

I feel dumb for only posting on mondays..... because I love music it makes it easy.

Well maybe I'll do better this week haha.

And the song is..... Skyscraper - Tyler Ward.

Enjoy

Mud mud mud

So this week I may have spent a lot of time with mud.
At work.
My truck was stuck in it.
My truck was covered in it.
I got other peoples trucks covered in it.
I found this cool little place that is called Cahoon's Crossing. It's basically a mud road then you cross a creek then a really really muddy road where you can test out the four wheel drive haha.
So to go along with my love of mud. I want to dedicate this song to last week.

I like this.

"I find the whole concept of being ‘sexy’ embarrassing and confusing. If I do an interview with photographs people desperately want to change me - dye my hair blonder, pluck my eyebrows, give me a fringe. Then there’s the choice of clothes. I know everyone wants a picture of me in a mini-skirt. But that’s not me. I feel uncomfortable. I’d never go out in a mini-skirt. It’s nothing to do with protecting the Hermione image. I wouldn’t do that. Personally, I don’t actually think it’s even that sexy. What’s sexy about saying, ‘I’m here with my boobs out and a short skirt, have a look at everything I’ve got?’ My idea of sexy is that less is more. The less you reveal the more people can wonder. " - Emma Watson

gimmie gimmie

I want a truck.
I want a sports car.
I want a jeep.
I want a silver porsche... or mr. beans car.
I want to have millions of those smelly trees so my car always smells amazing.
I want some sweet rims.
I want to make up my own licence plate.
I want a wicked stereo system.
I want the cooling/heated seats buttons.
I want a heated steering wheel.
I want XM radio tuned to the highway.
I want a portable vacuum in my trunk.
I want to have a little soccer ball hanging from my mirror w/ my grad tassle. Tacky...yes =)
Even this could work just fix it up a little haha.

Sadly, I think a vehicle of any kind is not in my future.

Give it a few years....maybe?