Optimism

If the world is cold—then i'll build a fire.

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Sometimes there are ugly colors that you normally wouldn't want to use, but in the end all the colors you use will come together to make a beautiful picture. Who cares about how awful they seem at the time. Remember, there is always a bigger picture. So for the good and the bad moments....thanks for coloring my life.

Laughter

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"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter." e.e. cummings

So I love to be happy. It’s the best. The other day while talking to my little brother he kept saying “tomorrow I love ya, I love ya tomorrow”. He couldn’t really remember all the words to the song, or the melody for that matter, but it was super cute and funny. I couldn’t stop smiling for a long time. I just miss my family. Especially my sweet forgetful mother. Haha I forgot some stuff at home over christmas break so I called my mom and asked her to send them to me... ya she’s still working on that. It’s okay though the way I see it, i’ll be home soon and can get it then. 

I really miss my brothers. Ryan always makes me feel so loved. Jaden is always the tough guy who randomly slips up and shows me in some way that he loves me. (Oh, those moments are the best haha) Taylor is the best because he just loves everyone. When he was little if he ever asked for something we’d ask “What do you say?” to which he’d always respond “Please and thank-you, I love you”. Haha he was the cutest little suck up. Oh how I love little moments that make you laugh. Another story about Taylor, when he was little, he would answer the phone and say “Hi. Who is it? What’d you want?” Except we had this weird phone where when you picked up you had to wait a second then say hello or they wouldn’t hear it...so it was always funny when Taylor would answer the phone because whoever was calling would only hear “Who is it? What’d you want?” 

Do you know what I really miss? My dad, he is amazing. Best thing about him is his calm attitude. He’s always smiling about something, or he’s always cracking jokes and laughing at his own jokes. I miss that. My dad always made my day brighter just by being himself. I need to be more like him and just smile for no reason; just be happy with everything life throws at me no matter how bad it may be or may seem.

I love Sundays

(my religion)

I just love sundays. They are always just exactly what I need to get my week going. I'm so grateful that my parents raised me in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. If you love your family then you would enjoy this video.

 I hope you all have a great week. Spread the love. Happy valentines day tomorrow!

Another Ending

My latest heartbreak...

Can you believe it’s almost valentines day! February should be such a romantic and lovely month. I can’t believe I have to do this so close to such a special day; goodbyes are never easy. This one I know will be even worse. It doesn't seem right to end this way, but you asked for it. I don't know how you could expect anything more from me.

It seems like just yesterday we met; you made me laugh, you made me smile, and you even made my life exciting. You taught me so many cool and interesting new things that I never would have known without you. You filled my day and made me constantly busy doing something. Life seemed so great.

We spent so much time together. You spent many mornings by my side. Many long hours in the library together. I really thought we had something special.  So many hours late at night spent with you. Did those not mean or add up to anything for you? I thought you'd appreciate that I gave up so many other dates and options for you. I know I’d heard about all you’re past relationships and how most them ended badly. I thought things would be different for us. However, after thursday night I just don’t think I can do this anymore. After all we've been through—how could you? I thought after all the work I put into us you would have rewarded me. I’m sorry but I think it’s time we go our separate ways. This relationship really can’t work anymore. You betrayed me when I needed you to help me out the most. All that's left to say is....

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good riddance American Heritage good luck with your next relationship!

Dear midterms, you are cordially uninvited.

So this week I fell upon a natural disaster. This wreck is me!! For some strange reason I somehow found away to forget I was in college. Crazy, right? How do you forget that? Haha I just realized that even though I’m back in Provo and at school my head has still been on holiday. This holiday caused me to have a little freak out....possibly some small stress break downs here and there. Luckily I have awesome roommates and friends to keep me on track. I made it through a test and a few quizzes without dissappointment, but really I need to get focused again! Especially with three papers coming up in the very near future as well as an American Heritage midterm....eeeek! Being Canadian makes me American...., but in this situation I feel like I am not American at all haha. An amazing girl from back home shared this quote on facebook and I had to share it, it’s the best:

FINAL PRAYER.

Now I lay me down to study,

I pray the Lord I won't go nutty,

if I should fail to learn this junk,

I pray the Lord I will not flunk.

Don't pity me at all,

just lay my bones in the study hall,

tell my prof I did my best,

then pile my books upon my chest.

Now I lay me down to rest,

and pray I'll pass tomorrows test,

If I should die before I wake,

that's one less test i'll have to take!

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So one night the roommates and I got talking about how we wish our apartment felt more like a home, and we decided a pet would make it a home. Unfortunately for us, you’re not allowed to have pets in heritage halls....but we figured if we could get a little tea cup pig Amy (the RA) would never notice him during cleaning checks if we made a friend watch him while she was over. I think if we would have followed through with it, this cute little pig could take away all my stress. In all honesty a Wells 152 mascot would be pretty legit. :D Hope everyone is doing wonderful. If this little guy doesn't brighten your day I don't know what will.

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Ps. Yes I did get my housing set up for next fall/winter semester!! Craaaazy. Jefferson 37 hear I come. Haha